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DESTINY BECKONS: The Flame Wavers
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PostPosted: Sat Jan 09, 2010 1:32 am    Post subject: The Flame Wavers: 08 January 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
Upstairs Apartment above ~Heart Notes~
Friday, the 8th of January (2010); Late evening.


I have finally recoverd a bit from last night's accidental encounter with The Muse. I believe I am not her target, although I clearly sensed (I had no choice) that she knew of my weakness. Connar is not convinced I will remain safe. He swore that if he ever saw her, he would kill her. I do not know how to explain to him that any attack on her is redirected to one of her victims like Mason or Blue. He just does not want to see me come to any harm. I believe it is to be my fight. I am the created of and to use magic. He claims it is ours. He is right in a way, because I want to help him in his. I would forfeit my life in an instant for his.

We began it as a jest, but it has taken on hints of seriousness. Where would two such of us make a home? We are not of RhyDin. I handle, or at least used to, endure the darker and baser elements of those who reside here better than Connar. In my current state, I am even less tolerant than he. I wanted to slam my fist down as prominent slaver's throat last night! I was mortified after Connar soothed my volatile emotions down enough to see I almost took Dave's bait.

He is so patient with me especially when my emotions are so scrambled and I am so weak that I cannot keep track intellectually with him. He is right we all make choices on how we are to live our lives. We know pretty much how we want to live our lives, we definitely know with whom... now it is where? When? Well, that is yet to be determined.

~E



Well I'm starting the day trying to find different ways to get through
Till it's time to come back And I can't slow it down and I'm climbing the walls and I feel like I'm under attack

There's too many people that get in my way
And there's never a right time that I get to say

When you and I touch hands when you and I stop
Still in the moment it's you and I
Not running for something that's already gone
When it's just you and I that's when I'm home
That's when I'm home

There's always the question what's holding me down
Show me an answer cause I haven't found
A way to escape to get out of it all
Somewhere that I am allowed to fall
With no bones to break I can be who I am
Cause you know me better than anyone

When you and I touch hands when you and I stop
Still in the moment it's you and I
Not running for something that's already gone
When it's just you and I that's when I'm home That's when I'm home
Home's not a house with windows and walls not a place to be shut in
There are no doors
And no matter where I come to rest your arms will be my safety net

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(( Lyrics are from You And I, Garou))
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PostPosted: Sat Jan 16, 2010 1:12 am    Post subject: The Flame Waavers : 15 January 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
My bedroom above ~Heart Notes~
Friday, the 15th of January (2010); Late Evening.


I seem to be fading more and more each day. I vacillate somewhere between being overly sensitive and uncomfortably numb depending on how much mana I have been able to absorb. It is so difficult to explain to Connar and my friends what I am going through. Even if I told them the entire truth, I do not believe they would grasp it completely. Rena has the magical background to understand some of it... Connar knows me so well to know there is more going on than what I allow everyone to see.

I am angry. I am frustrated. Whoever this is is toying with me... stealing mementos and trinkets that mean little to anyone other than me. They can pass through my wards without leaving behind any trace for me to follow.

I am trying to get my affairs in order. I spoke with Rena last night and she will watch the shop if I need to be away. Little does she know that it is bequeathed to her with a portion set aside for Eva and Mason if aught should happen to me.

I am always cold and weary. It makes it so hard to try to find answers in all the books I have scattered about my chambers. I am either too cold to sit still for long ... or if I sit still long enough I usually end up falling fast asleep, only to be woken by the same nightmares.

The only respite I have had has been when I have dozed off in Connar's arms. He only seems to understand that my magic is gone. That is all I thought it was at first - that I could no longer manipulate the ebb and flow of mana and that my empathy was gone. That is not the entire truth; they still exist, they are just weakened to the point of inefficacy. My core being is fading... the essence of who I am is slowly, deliberately being drained.

~E

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PostPosted: Thu Jan 21, 2010 9:03 pm    Post subject: The Flame Waavers : 21 January 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
Third Floor of ~Heart Notes~
Thursday, the 21st of January (2010); Early evening.


I don't know what lies beyond the portal in Evandar. I only have the bits and pieces carried upon dreams... nightmares... I do know what is on this side of the portal: a shell. There are times I feel that I am an empty husk that winter's wind can blow at whim. At others, I am so full of emotions that I will burst. And I did burst the other night.

I thought I had created a manageable balance of emotions, tentative but serviceable, with the extra energy with which I had been blessed. However, one simple conversation with Lord Yhaul and all my efforts dissolved. It was not even a particularly hostile encounter! Poor Connar was the recipient of my emotional meltdown. I do not know how to explain to him what it is like to be an empath in the first place, never mind what it is like to be an empath who loses the strength to fully control and use her gifts.

Countless emotions were unfettered to co-mingle with haphazhard thoughts. They just kept flowing from me in short waves of confusion. I could only control the intensity to insure nobody near was hurt -- especially him. I know that one of the Dark's most powerful tools is doubt. I know this in my head, but it gnaws at my center, eating away my resolve. It seemed as if Connar's patience had no bounds; he listened; he counseled; he continued to love me. I need to take the strength from my heart and the knowledge from me head and unite them against the Dark.

I can try to describe my situation like this: a blind person keeps his home arranged just so. Everything has its place and it always stays the same. No matter what happens outside of the home, what experiences there may be to explore... the changes... when he comes home, there is no need for a guide, for assistance of any kind. He is home and knows where everything is. He can just relax and be.

In my case there has been a slow wearing down of surfaces that caused my personal foundation to crack, thus setting my center of balance of kilter. Everything is in a disarray. Some things are broken, some are gone... my security and confidences has vanished with them.

I do not want to venture out to experience what is out there waiting for me without a sanctuary to retreat back to. It does not matter if I have the best guides available. I am too tired from keeping up my guard constantly, from having no safe place to rest.

I am a shell, remember?

But I am not an empty shell. Instead of relying on my center, I must draw strength from her heart. I must find safety in my heart. I can do this because of one of the most powerful forces of the Light: Love.

And for that I cannot begin to thank Mon Coeur enough.

~E


~The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I’m broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away~


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((Lyrics from Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee))

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PostPosted: Sun Jan 31, 2010 12:54 am    Post subject: The Flame Wavers : 30 January 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
The Work Room at ~Heart Notes~
Saturday, the 30th of January (2010); Late Afternoon.


Oh, what nosy voisines I have! They were banging on my door early this afternoon with the pretense of wondering when I was going to reopen the shoppe. What they really wanted to know about was why I am escorted home in the wee hours of the morning by my handsome fiance. As if they would ever let me hear the end of it if they saw him leave my home at such hours!

I hated wasting my precious time with him on sleep, but I am not yet fully restored. I am woefully weak in the magical sense, yet am feeling less nauseous and fatigued in general. I shared with Connar that I believe the draining has stopped. Once I am strong again, I will take the fight to my opponent before s/he can strike me again. He liked the beginning, but not so much the end.

He's had a vision of what will most likely happen in the future. Monumental changes in his life must take before we are able to wed. I told him I could not ask him to give up his life, his gifts, his family... anything for me. He replied that he knew I did not ask them, it is his wish to do so. We both look forward to the time when we can focus on each other and become husband and wife. Whether it is in the near future or many years from now, neither of us know.

In the meantime, I both rejoice and am amazed that our love for one another grows deeper with each day that passes.

He might not believe in luck; but, I believe I am blessed.

~E

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PostPosted: Sat Feb 13, 2010 11:17 pm    Post subject: The Flame Wavers: 13 February 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
Upstairs Apartment above ~Heart Notes~
Saturday, the 13th of February (2010); Late afternoon.


I had to close up shop early for an opportunity I couldn't miss. I was invited by a new designer on Benson Boulevard to make a guest appearance down the runway and where one of her designs. Frida was extremely kind to allow me to participate in such an exciting - yet terrifying- experience. There will be no time to change before the Valentine's Gala that also signals the end to RhyDin's Fashion Weeks.

It has been one year now that ~Heart Notes~ has been in business and it has flourished beyond mind wildest hopes. Fashion Week has been extremely busy both because of upcoming Saint's holiday and because I had crafted a limited edition fragrance collection for Koy's charity gala. I'm both proud and honoured that I was asked to contribute. Papillon Ephemere was an experiment for me since it is the first time I have used pheromones in a fragrance and also crushed pearls in the body products. It is all the better that all proceeds go to charity.

Even though I have been busy, there has still been time enough free for me to miss Connar. I cannot help but worry after our last conversation. I did not realize that night that he was going away for an extended time. That might have been the last time that I saw him that he would recognize me. I know my heart will recognize him no matter what shape nor form he may be... or even if he does not recognize me.

But what if he cannot find his way back to RhyDin? It tears me apart to think I may be separated from him for centuries before he can find his way back to me. There is so much more I wanted to share with him before he left. I promised to be brave and I am trying so hard to be. I have not breathed a word of this to our friends. As I regain my strength, I smile bravely and do what I can to be there for them. I will go to the dance tonight, laugh and spend time with my friends. But my heart will be with mon amour.

~E


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~On m'invite, on me désire et je danse et je sors
Et quand je danse je t'aime encore

Mais où es-tu ?
Aussi loin sans même une adresse
Et que deviens-tu ?
L'attente est ma seule caresse

Et je t'aime encore
Comme dans les chansons banales
Et ça me dévore
Et tout le reste m'est égal

De plus en plus fort
A chaque souffle à chaque pas
Et je t'aime encore
Et toi tu ne m'entends pas~


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((Lyrics from Je t'aime encore - Jean Jacques Goldman

Chante par Celine Dion: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogDd_ODYn2U))

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PostPosted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 10:12 pm    Post subject: The Flame Wavers : 12 March 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
Upstairs Apartment at ~Heart Notes~
Friday, the 12th of March (2010); Early evening.


It has been about two lunar cycles since I have seen him and felt the warmth of his gaze, the gentleness of his touch. I miss him more than I ever dreamed. The draining of Evandar has slowed; perhaps even ceased. I will not know for sure until I can cross the portal safely. I hope to do so on the Spring Equinox as I do every year. What little strength I have remaining from my work, I am storing for this. I know not what to expect when I get there; but, I will prepare for the worst. I just wish... pray... that sometime before I go, I get to see mon amour once more.

~E


~Détourner des rivières, porter des poids
Traverser des mers, je saurais faire

Défier des machines, narguer des lois
Les foudres divines, ça m'effraie pas

J'sais prendre un coup, le rendre aussi
River des clous, ça j'ai appris

J'suis pas victime, j'suis pas colombe
Et pour qu'on m'abîme, faut qu'je tombe

Je sais les hivers, je sais le froid
Mais la vie sans toi, je sais pas

Je savais le silence depuis longtemps
J'en sais la violence, son goût de sang

Rouges colères, sombres douleurs
Je sais ces guerres, j'en ai pas peur

Je sais me défendre, j'ai bien appris
On est pas des tendres par ici

Je sais les hivers, je sais le froid
Mais la vie sans toi, je sais pas

Lutte après lutte, pire après pire
Chaque minute, j'ai cru tenir

J'voudrais apprendre jour après jour
Mais qui commande à nos amours?

Je sais les hivers, je sais le froid
Mais la vie sans toi, je sais pas

Je sais pas
Je sais pas~

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((Lyrics from [b]Je Sais Pas[/b], Written By: Jean-Jacques Goldman and J. Kapler ))
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PostPosted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 11:31 pm    Post subject: The Flame Waavers: 07 June 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
The Upstairs Apartment at ~Heart Notes~
Monday, the 7th of June (2010); Late Evening.




~My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed~

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((Lyrics from "All Around Me", Flyleaf))
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PostPosted: Sat Aug 28, 2010 8:53 pm    Post subject: The Flame Wavers: 28 August 10 Reply with quote

RhyDin
The Courtyard Garden at ~Heart Notes~
Saturday, the 28th of August (2010); Late Afternoon.


I have finally returned from Evandar and hasten to prepare the shoppe to be re-opened next week. Threats of enlisting Les Voisines to assist in all the cleaning is the only way I have managed to keep them from setting up watch in the salon area and avoiding their attempts to ferret out the details of my absence.

So far it seems that my work at Evandar is successful for I am slowly and steadily regaining my strength. I am nearly back at my normal weight, so I have not bothered with the minute alterations for my clothing. Only the most discerning eyes can tell anyway.

Much has happened in my absence, yet very little has changed. It has been good to see the familiar and friendly faces of my friends like Johnny, Juliane, Tara, Joey, Lucien and Icer. I have invited Sylvia and her children for a visit to pick some of the peaches that are weighing down the slender boughs of the trees here in the garden. She is such a good, steady friend and her children are a pure delight to spend time with.

Lirssa is in a wheelchair and I have not yet had the opportunity to question her as to what happened. It just wasn't proper to do while I was busy tending last night.

If I do not see Eva, Mason or Rena soon, I will make certain to stop by their homes to check on them.

I could swear I sensed the lingering traces of Connar's aura the other night when I sat upon the Inn's swing. Much was muddled because of the passage of many patrons and I also wonder just how much was the multitude of memories that resurfaced with such a simple, but familiar act. The falcon has not returned to my knowledge and I fully admit I am worried. This has been the longest he has been gone since we have known each other.

I must stop rambling now and return inside to make the sachets for Fio so they will be ready for Lirssa to pick up on Tuesday.

~E

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