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Thoughts on the matter? (R/ Belly of the Beast)

 
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PostPosted: Tue Sep 05, 2017 12:35 am    Post subject: Thoughts on the matter? (R/ Belly of the Beast) Reply with quote

I’ve lost count of the days I’ve been here a while ago. It hasn’t been ages, but…it’s been long enough to where I know Zver can’t possibly be coming for me. I bet he already found out what I did…what Sawyer did to me. I bet he isn’t even looking anymore. Maybe he never was. Maybe he knew from the beginning; when I was snatched up…

Damaged goods, and all that.

I can’t blame him.

I just wish I could stop thinking about him.

Everything is different now.

Sawyer is different now, if you can believe it. I know what he did was awful, but… it was my fault. I provoked him. If I had just listened, he wouldn’t have done it. If I’d have just been quiet, maybe I’d be with Zver right now. He’s been kind since then, patient… He cares about me, even. Makes sure I eat, gives me something to help me sleep. I’m not even locked in the basement anymore. I could leave if I wanted, but…what is there to go back to?

I’m off the wagon completely, so I’d be useless as a mother.

If Zver doesn’t already hate me, he’ll hate me for sure when he finds out.

I feel like a fail-princess, y’know? Like… Okay so I have all the ingredients of a girl from a fairy tale. Orphaned at a young age, crappy childhood, evil sister… Then I met a prince charming, but that went to hell real quick. Then I meet Zver, and no…he wasn’t charming, he wasn’t sweet. He was a real ***hole, to be honest, but we fell in love.

Now this.

Am I not meant for a happily ever after? Am I cursed to this?

I want to smile and be okay, but god it hurts so bad. I can’t stop thinking about him, and then there’s Sawyer…

I wish he’d just let me end it.

I really just want it to be over.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

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PostPosted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 4:06 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Everyone came to get me. They didnt forget, they came. All of them, even the ones that I thought didnt care about me. Some people I didnt even know.

Sawyer lied to me, about everything. He played with my emotions, and I want to be madbut mostly Im just hurt. Why do I feel like this? Why do I care? He never did. I hate that even now, when Im away from him, he has so much power over me. I keep thinking about him, what he did to me.

Will I ever be the same again?

I honestly dont know

Im home now, but it doesnt feel like home anymore. Everyone is so different. Even Freya, who is trying to pretend like shes not. They all treat me like if they so much as look at me the wrong way, Im going to fall to pieces.

Maybe I will Who knows?

I dont know anything anymore

Bits and pieces of the old Zver shine through sometimes Im used to this sort of treatment from Dorian, but not him Things cant go back to the way they were if everything stays like this. I cant feel normal when theyre treating me like Im made of glass.

Glass is probably sturdier than I am right now, I know

I just want my life back.

Im so tired


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