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PostPosted: Wed Aug 09, 2017 1:36 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Wednesday. August 9, 2017.
-- reminders


The world is quiet here on Canes beach. I can stand here in the sand, feet bare, and feel nothing. Hear nothing. Why did I not build my home on the edge of the sea?

Ah. Thats right. I did once. Or he did, for me. And then he reduced it to so much ash.

We tried again and it went nowhere. This time it stopped. Just stopped. Came crashing to a halt at a dead end of nothing.

"Do your tattoos have stories?"

How did he get there? Why is this boy in my head, haunting me?

"Mine... reminds me that even good things can hurt.

My fingers fall to my hip as they did that day. The memory sweeps me up, flings me about, grips me in its teeth and shakes me violently, like dogs do.

Ah yes. I said. I have one of those too. Here and now, like then, my fingers trace the letters. Do I really feel them, or is it imaginary? Ive touched them so many times Ive memorized the feel. Their meaning is etched deep into me and will never go away. They remind me.

siempre

Forever is a lie.

Perhaps I should have told him this instead of filling him with hope. What is he but meat to me?

I know what it is. He is my reflection. He is me. I was this boy, long ago. I sat and watched and learned the world. He will do this, as I did. And the world will carve him up, sharpen his edges, turn him bitter and cruel. As it did me.

Hell walk the streets every day, as I do. See the filth and the grit. Pause a moment to clean something. A scrap of litter. Debris fallen from a roof. A dead body. And there are so many in this city. Not all of them are found. Some day hell be one of them and Ill collect him too.

Or have I already collected him? Another stray. Cane will sigh and roll his eyes at me. I can hear him already.

Not another one, Salvador.

No. Not really. This one has its own place. Hes feral enough to survive without needing any sanctuary I could give him. What a laugh that would be anyway. And a mess. Such a mess. Autumn is not far now. Its never far. Its always here.

In me.

A heat wave slides up behind me. Warm fingers slide over the words on my forearm, remind me, pulling me back: Right Here Right Now. His other arm winds around my waist. He presses his lips to the skin behind my right ear, over the tattoo. Another reminder. We are equal. His chest presses against my back, making my spikes lie flat and still. I sigh, melting, wanting to sink back into him. He knows. He holds me steady.

Why do I insist on walking among them? Every day. No routine. A different road every time. They never stay the same anyway. This city always changes. The map rewrites itself every morning, shifting and twisting. Its a serpent that swallows people up, sometimes spits them back out. Not always, not always.

There is no always. Except this one.

Are you ready, amant? he whispers in my ear. Another reminder. It is Wednesday. Our day. What new thing Ive never done does he have planned for me this day?

I breathe in the here and the now, take it into my lungs on one deep inhale. I sway with the tide as I stir from my mind. My eyes open to daylight, the ocean. His arms around me. This is constant. This I can rely on. Him.

Yes. My voice is an exhale. I feel his smile against my skin and remember that I can smile too.
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PostPosted: Mon Oct 30, 2017 11:34 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Friday. October 27, 2017.
-- lost boy


Graveyards are full of bodies, though most of them are dead. They should be. This is a place of corpses. A place where her cold fingers reach out as mist and rake up the refuse. She doesnt touch this one, though. His breath creates fog in the night air. Its the first sign I know hes still living. The second is his pulse. I can hear it thumping in his throat without even having to touch him. I wont touch. Not if I dont have to. But this is no good place for him. Some thing, like me, might mistake him for a meal. Ill wait and watch a while. If anyones to claim him, it should be me.

When he stirs, its with a great gasping breath, like a man drowning. The frost film on the ground is the sea. He is adrift, scrambling for purchase, for something. He doesnt know Im here. I should let him know before I startle him too badly. So I ask him.

What are you looking for?

His recovery is quick. Good, good. The colors of his aura swirl angrily from fright to irritation. Thats good. Id rather have him annoyed than dead. What would I tell his sister? Would I even tell her at all?

I found your brother dead in the graveyard. No, I did not kill him.

Would the witchling believe me? Does anyone ever? About anything?

Cigarettes, he says. My mind. The meaning of life. Take your pick.

Sarcastic little ***. If I knew him better, I might slap him. Maybe thatd help him find his mind. Ah, but if I did that I dont think Id be able to stop. I bet his skull would crack open nicely on one of these tombstones. No, no. I mustnt think like that. I like this one.

I can help you with one of those things, I tell him. I keep cigarettes in my pockets for Cane, and for Sin. Those ones are getting stale like they did before. Theyll also likely kill him faster. I offer him one of my Cajuns menthols. The lesser of two evils.

The boy hesitates. This is good. There is still some survival instinct left in him, despite the nearly empty bottle of vodka at his side, and the fact that I found him sleeping in a cemetery. When he takes the cigarette, I give him back his space. I turn my back on him. If I close my eyes, I can imagine its not a fragile human boy behind me. The scent of Canes cigarette, his now, burning, helps. I try to focus on that, on the memories it conjures. My anchor. My sanity.

I havent any of my own to give, boy. What makes you think I could help you find yours?

Do you always hang out in cemeteries in the middle of the night? he asks.

I could ask the same of him! No, I say. Though his tone makes me want to knock his teeth in. I wont let him know it. Thats what he wants. I know. I was him once. This boy is my mirror. Shattering it is a certain temptation, but I resist. I resist.

Then why are you here?

Oh, I cannot give him the true answer to this. Hes already wary of me, rightfully so. The honest answer would send him running. We dont want that. If he runs, I chase. I cant not. So I dont answer him precisely. I go back instead to elaborate upon the first.

Not always, I tell him. No, you little ***, I dont always hang out in cemeteries in the middle of the night. Only sometimes. Sometimes. Besides the hunt for bodies, which I cant tell him about -- sometimes there are fresh ones and its always worth the wasted time to wander in search of them -- why else do I come? Ah. Yes. I like the quiet.

He settles in against the grave marker behind him. I think, I hope, my answer alleviates some of his tension. Surely what remains of his alcohol is helping. Hell finish it in a few short swallows, and hell pass out again. The drunk always do.

Me too, he says. I used to come here to talk, but why talk when you dont get an answer? Now I come here for the silence.

I hear my mother. An echo from another time. Many times.

You are a troubled child looking for comfort where you will find none.

And who is he seeking comfort from? I look where he his pointing with the burning end of the cigarette. The tombstone Id been sitting on when he stirred. Brushing my fingers over the crown of it, the words come to me through my skin and into my eyes.

Here lie Timothy and Grace Richie. And a date too long ago for a boy to remember them well.

I see. Hes forgotten the sounds of their voices. No wonder he cant hear them anymore.

Theres always an answer. Im outside myself and my mouth is talking. Theyre not entirely my words. Im only the mouthpiece. You might not hear it. You might not have to. Whats important is someones listening. Theres always someone listening.

Theyre dead, the boy says. Hes all attitude. Pent up anger. He should really just punch something. Part of me wants to taunt him to strike, to see what hes made of. But Id break him. Id tear him apart. Maybe after the Autumn.

Tch. That doesnt matter. He doesnt understand and I dont know how to explain to him. I dont mean them. It doesnt have to be them. Cold stone can listen too. He doesnt get it. And maybe he wont until hes tasted death too. Which brings me to the more important matter. Youre not. Hes not dead. He doesnt belong here in this graveyard. This is a place for the dead, and for talking to the dead, and sometimes for hunting the dead.

Im well aware, he says snidely. He shuts his eyes and leans his head to the tombstone behind him. Good. He cant see me rolling my eyes.

I wasnt so sure, which is why Im here. I found you. I thought Id make sure you werent. God help me Ill make sure you dont wind up that way, at least the rest of this night.

He says nothing. I say nothing. We are nothing together. What more is there to say?

There are hungry creatures creeping. I can hear them skittering on the fringes. Theyre thinking about it. The night things wonder if this boy is easy prey. Not on my watch. Not this one. Not now.


( Complementary piece to Trick's Wake Up. )
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PostPosted: Fri Dec 08, 2017 3:40 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Friday. December 8, 2017.
-- eruption


The phone never even rang. It buzzed quietly on the nightstand, going largely unnoticed, drowned out by the constant wash of the not so distant sea against the shore below the house. Cane was sleeping. Salvador was not. This was not unusual. It was technically still Autumn after all.

Five minutes previous, Canes phone had behaved much the same way, right beside his own. Who would be calling them so early in the morning? The sun had not even risen yet, and like every morning Salvador was waiting for it. In the meantime, he spent the quiet hours of the morning watching his Cajun sleep.

It wasnt until an hour later, as the first tendrils of daylight crawled over the horizon, that he let curiosity grab any hold of him at all. The sun trickled in through the windows, stirring him from a mostly meditative state. Even though he did not sleep, he embraced moments of stillness, encouraged by the steady rising and falling of the Cajuns chest. Canes peace was his own.

Another day, he thought, watching the sun ooze over the horizon. Another *** you to the world. He was alive, against all odds, an abomination that continued to live as if solely to spite those who doubted that he could.

Unwinding from his cross-legged coil atop the mattress, he slid from the bed and stood, stretching. A wash of recent history splashed against the bare soles of his feet. He rectified this by stepping into the house slippers he kept around. He was the only memory imprinted upon them, and that was bearable. On his way to the kitchen, he pulled his phone from the nightstand, taking it with him. He listened to his voicemail while filling the carafe with water to start a pot of coffee.

He listened.

That voice.

Time and space rushed in to smother him. For a moment all he could hear was the sluggishly labored beat of his own aching heart. The ocean was gone. Canes breathing was gone. The rush of water spilling from the tap and into the carafe was gone. There were only words uttered by a ghost in his ear. The last of them triggered a detonator in his soul.

...if you need me.

The world erupted back into shape, sped up. He felt an ache in his jaw from how tightly he was grinding his teeth. A strangled growl spilled through them. Water splashed against the wall above the sink shortly before the glass carafe shattered against the far wall to his right, near the door. It wasnt enough.

He tore the machine from the wall socket and sent it crashing to the middle of the floor. He winged one of the kitchen chairs like a shot put through a front window. The monster in him upended the couch atop the coffee table, smashing it. All the little nick knacks hed crafted were swept from the mantle and scattered across the floor.

All he saw was red. He never saw the man come up behind him, after dashing a lamp against the fireplace. Thick, muscled arms coiled tight around his own, locking them securely against his ribs, crushing his spine flat against a sturdy chest. He felt the fragile machine parts of his phone cracking under the strength of his own grip. His breathing came hard. He struggled to break free, needing to break more, destroy more.

Amant, Cane whispered in his ear. Amant, what is it? Calm down. Talk to me.

The words spilled out of his mouth in a foreign jumble, Spanish. l est de vuelta. l ha regresado. Ese hijo de puta. It was nonsense out of context and it came seething through his teeth as he pushed back against the Cajuns secure hold. Then the tears came, clouding his vision and refilling it with red.

Cane wrested the phone from his grip, sparing it from a worse fate. All of Taneths hard work bejeweling it could not be allowed to be destroyed so easily. The release of one arm set Salvador back in motion. He violently shook himself free and broke into the lanai to assault Aoifes poor defenseless plants.

The rage overtook him. When next a moment of clarity came, they were in the forest. Smoke coiled out of a stone chimney. The scent of a frozen lake nearby alerted recognition. They were elsewhere. Safe. Here was the Burrow with nothing and no one for miles around. The wood pile was in ruins, chopped and neatly stacked logs strewn across the frigid landscape. They lie panting together, half naked, bloody, bruised. They must have been fighting.

Im tired. They were the first words Salvador had spoken that were not layered with fury.

Come inside, Cane said, smearing a wet kiss to his temple. Ill help you sleep.

His dreams were blessedly empty. When he woke, there was Cane. Nothing and no one else. Only Cane and peace. For a time.
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 13, 2017 3:45 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Monday. December 11, 2017.
-- picking at scabs


Why am I angry?

I went to see him yesterday. I knew exactly where hed be. He sounded so surprised.

"Salvador--"

The sound of my name spilling breathlessly from his lips I thought I had heard the last of it. How long ago was it now? How long has it been? The last I saw of him was the end of February. Had he waited a few more months Its been nearly two years. As long as, if not longer than, the last time.

Theres no more house for me to seal and lock up, entomb as I did before. Ive spent so long locking down other things, though. In my heart. In my mind. By now I was starting to believe Id never see him again. I was starting to make my peace.

His voice leaking out of my phone and into my ear shattered so many carefully placed locks. It broke me apart inside. I thought I was okay.

"I'm tired of hurting you, and him. You're tired of hurting."

Yes.


But how do I explain the hurt? I dont understand it myself. Telling him that hes the cause will only do him harm as well. There is no fixing the damage that was done. Nothing I say will help.

"Words are our enemy."

"They weren't, once."


No, and hes right. I hate how hes right. Always.

The long ago times come back to me when I think on them. Once, his were the only words that could soothe me. I hated him and loved him. I still do. Try as I might, I cant stay angry with him. He has always been this way, coming and going as he pleases. The length of time never mattered before. I never noticed. Now I do. Ive changed. He stays the same. Is there any hope left for us?

"I would like you to tell me everything. All of it. And I will tell you everything. I would like to know what you want, from me. And I will tell you what I can give."

And what if there is nothing to tell? Theres nothing left to say that hasnt already been said. I want nothing, because if I ask him for anything his inability to give it will only break my heart more. He doesnt have to tell me. I know thats all that he can give. Nothing.

Love is all we have, and Im beginning to make my peace with that.

---

Do you still love me?

Yes.

"Then that's all that matters to me. And all I require."

"Even if everything changes? If I can't be here for you? If I'm with someone else? When you leave again...? If years go by again and I never see you...?"

"Even if everything changes. As long as you love me and you still have a place for me -- that's what matters."
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PostPosted: Wed Dec 20, 2017 3:30 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Wednesday. December 20, 2017.
-- solstice approaching


Tomorrow it ends. At least temporarily.

Temporary. Yes, thats what this is. Just another season that comes and goes. Another storm to wait out. He comes and he goes. Never stays. Its the lack of staying that hurts the most. Ive always endured it well enough before. No one ever knew. But then I never let anyone else as close to me as him before. Now Im not enduring alone. Now someone waits with me, and it affects him too.

This is Wednesday. We should be out doing something. The timing is terrible. I havent the strength to get off this bed. Im hungry. Im trying not to think about it. Im glad hes here to keep me distracted, but hes sleeping now. I envy him. But its a temporary envy, because tomorrow Ill be able to sleep again too.

Left to my own thoughts. Theyre terrible. I dont want to be thinking, but theres little else to do. The more I actually want to disconnect the less I can. I try to do nothing but listen. Listen to him breathing. Listen to the relaxed thrum of his sleep-slowed beating heart. Listen to the wind slither over the windowpanes. Listen to the past crawl its way up out of my memories and claw at my brain. There are too many whispers.

Ill listen, when youre ready.

Isnt that what he always says? And by the time I am ready hes gone again. Theres no point in preparing. He leaves. I allow myself to forget. I immerse myself in other things, better things. I let myself be happy. Ive finally found someone who makes me happy in all the ways I thought were *** and fairy tales. I know whats real now. I know what love is supposed to be.

My heart is *** stupid, though. I cant make it stop. I cant shut off that feeling.

How do I explain? What is there to say? How did you hurt me, Sinjin? Let me count the ways.

You set fire to what was ours, what was us. Burned it to the ground. That still hurts. I try to tell myself it doesnt, but I think back and I miss what was there, what we had. It wasnt home without you there. It was just a place for me to stay. Like so many other places. Home wasnt the place, it was the person. It is the person. What good is all that space without someone to share it with? Im glad its gone. It was a pointless pretend.

All those places

My fathers house. Your apartment. The small house Dimitri owned. A house you built by the sea. Just like another one you burned long before that. Church pews and inn rooms. I always found some place to rest my head when the need for sleep consumed me. But none of them were home.

Home was you.

It was. Past tense. All those places were empty without you in them, without you sharing the space with me. Things are different now. Similar, but not the same. I have many places again, but the difference is that these places feel just as much like home as the person I share them with. A house by the sea. A cabin in the woods. A boat and an apartment in the middle of my very own domain.

And another. A cavern and a mansion all rolled into one. Im as welcome there as if it were my own too. They are family. I never feel as if Im trespassing, as I did so often with you and those places that are yours.

There is no place now that is solely you and me, and I dont want there to be one. Youll just burn it down when youre angry or upset. Thats what you do. You bring ruin. The cycle repeats itself again and again. And I endure it every time, because I love you, and I cant stop.

Love. Its all I can give you, though. Thats all Im willing to give anymore. Only that. Only the reassurance that I still love you no matter how much your lack of being here hurts. I cant bear giving you any of my time, alone. All I can think about is how that time will end, and Ill have no idea when the next time Ill see you again will be. You could be gone tomorrow, an hour from now, a year. I never know. Ill love you from a distance. Its the only way thats safe for my heart.

Theres more. All these years, my blind devotion to you has meant nothing. Still you exclude me. You want to know all there is to know about me, but give me nothing. When people ask you what I do, you can tell them. Its simple. Ive shown you. Im a butcher. I own a meat processing company. There is no mystery, but with you Ive never known. Ive never been able to answer that question. All I know is you own a riverboat casino, and that still stings. You told me youd never set foot on it. You threw a party, without me. You knew I was gone. Deliberate exclusion, like always.

What was Peccavi? What was Ambrosia? I dont know. I dont know. Business. What does that mean? It could be anything. What kind of business? Youd never say. Nobody ever said. Not even the people who worked for you. Did they even know? They never told me. And did I ask? I didnt care. No. Its not that I didnt care. Its that I trusted you. That I hoped you would willingly divulge that information, share with me, and you never did.

Im tired of living in the dark, in your shadow. That time is long past now. The years without you have stacked up too high. And I will not allow everything Ive built without you to come crumbling down, fall apart from neglect, just because youve come again.

Where does that leave us? What else is left? Love. Only love. And thats enough. It must be.


But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true
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PostPosted: Thu Dec 28, 2017 12:29 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Thursday. December 28, 2017.
-- breaking point


Will this be the last time I see you?

This is what I think when I look at you, when I watch you walk out the door in the company of someone else entirely.

This is the thought that keeps me from doing what I want to do.

I want to see you. I want to touch you. I want to kiss you. God how I long to kiss you again. To be with you.

But I think - will this be the last time?

And it hurts. So I dont. I dont to try to keep myself from hurting which is pointless because it does anyway. The thought of being with you hurts. The thought of not being with you hurts. There is no solution. Only hurt one way or the other.

---

Distraction is a balm for my wounds.

Cane handed me the keys. I drove his Jeep in circles, tires squealing and kicking up clouds of filthy snow. The chaos and wreckage was delightfully therapeutic. As was the calming roar of the sea and the steaming hot shower we took together before bed.

No. Its just Cane. He is my salve.

Sano y salvo.

Mi gida.


I do not think I would survive this without him.

---

Not being with you hurts.

More than anything. I want to be with you.

Even if it is one last time
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Wednesday. February 7, 2017.
-- going, going, gone


From the outside it looked like a weeping willow in winter, sagging, drooping branches coated in ice. The strangest thing about it was the fact that there was no source of water around the tree. It stood in solitude, in the center of a meadow, in the middle of a forest full to brimming with trees of other varieties altogether. This tree did not belong here, and over the years it had become the most certain navigational marker. It was a signpost that very clearly told a traveler that they had arrived, here, at the end of all things.

On the inside the Bone Grove looked so very, very different. Stepping over the threshold of the Veil, everything changed. The sky grew just a little darker and drearier, no matter the time of day. A fine, silvery mist clung close to the ground, obscuring the sea of bones that crunched and rattled underfoot. The air was cloying and moist as the soil beneath, saturated with blood and the sweet tang of decay. In the middle of the Grove stood a boulder split in half, its smooth surface etched in fading runes that were difficult to read, written in a language that nobody living still knew. And jutting up out of the rotten soil just behind the stone was the tree.

It was a magnificent tree, a horrifying tree, made of no vegetable matter at all. The trunk was a gnarled and twisted mass of slick red ropes that had braided themselves together over the years. Its branches were too long and thin, too heavy with dripping red ichor. The strongest of them alone were responsible for giving the tree its impressive height of nearly fourteen feet. By mid March the tree would reach that milestone. The tree was a monument, a simulacrum. It was exposed veins wound tightly together reaching for the heavens. It had a pulse of its own, due to the living heart it kept stored securely in its center. This was Salvadors Heart Tree, a source of his power.

Nestled beneath its roots slept two corpses. Sometimes, in the dead of winter, he would come to talk to them. When there was no one else to talk to, he sought solace in their silence. They listened and said nothing at all. There was no judgment, no chastisement. Though he could often hear the echo of his mothers voice from another time reminding him.

You are a troubled child looking for comfort where you will find none.

Salvador came in the early morning. The sun was still newly cresting over the horizon. He had detoured from his usual route along the shore and plunged blindly into the forests surrounding the city instead. This was a place for the dead or the dying, and it was concern specifically for those that had brought him here. His mother was sleeping. She would not give him any answers. He wasnt certain he even wanted any, but took comfort in listening to the heart beat in his tree. There was so much to think about and he hadnt found the time lately.

First, there was Lirssa. She was dead. He knew he would not find her bones among the refuse at his feet. He sank down into the mist, putting his back to the curve of the stone behind him, and sifted his fingers through ancient remains. He found a handful of finger bones and rolled them in his palm.

Lirssa.

He had known her when she was a child, and had treated her as he did all children. He had kept a safe distance, viewed her as if she were a wild animal behind bars. Or perhaps he was the monster in the zoo, watching her. Close, but separate. He had never engaged any sort of relationship with her. But he knew, remembered well, how Ali and Fio had fought to legally adopt her, then abandoned her. Or so it had seemed to him. He hadnt seen either of them in so long, but he knew they were no longer together. As predicted. Their marriage had been such a farce from the start.

Cane was not taking her death well. He had bonded with her where Salvador could not. You were a better father to her than Ali ever was, amant, he murmured to the bones he still rolled in his palm. Using the French word made him feel more connected, as if the Cajun were sitting here beside him. The ghost of him trickled away as Salvador tipped his hand and let the bones spill back to the ground.

I wonder if they even know, he asked the dripping tree in front of him. Its only answer was a steady thum-thump, thumpa-thump.

Yesterday, Sin had said he had tried contacting Ali. A small, bitter part of himself reflected that now the sinner might have an inkling of understanding of how Salvador felt. Years had gone by with no response from him. The most important person in his life. Sinjin was, had been, his everything.

Maybe its true what they say about absence making the heart grow fonder. Scooping a slim and brittle radius from the pile surrounding him, he snapped it in half. It hurts because its real, he said, echoing another mans words from another time. He sighed and flicked the two halves of the bone at the base of his tree. He would never forget.

Sometimes I envy you, Madre. How relaxing it would be not to feel.

No one answered him, except maybe the tree with its constant thumping. Underneath that sound was the slithering swish of pumping blood. The roots of his tree stretched far and wide. Dig deep enough into the soil of Matadero and he could find them. He could make them and shape them. Lifting a hand now, palm up, he twitched a few fingers. It required very little concentration at all to make a pair of branches twist, groan, and twine themselves tightly together. Merely a thought and a flash of light licking through his irises.

I dont know what to do about him, he said, dropping his hand to slap back against his thigh. Salvador sighed and dropped the back of his head to rest against the curve of the stone behind him as well. I want things to be just as they were, but to do that I have to pretend these past four years didnt happen. They did happen, though. I cant undo them. And I cant make him stay. Even if I asked him to, he wouldnt. He tells me hes here if I need him, but when I do actually need him, hes not. Hes never here when it matters.

The sinner had missed so many important days. Birthdays. Anniversaries. Holidays. The Powerhouse Party. Of course, the man had gone away to Madrid during the week he said he would be here. Or at least try to be. Salvador remembered well how he had jested about not knowing who to cheer for, him or Jewell.

Jewell.

Hell break her heart too. Just as she broke Canes. Foolish woman. Shell deserve it. What do they see in her? Oh sure. She was beautiful. Especially to the easily deceived eye. Her glamour was astoundingly powerful. Salvadors eyes were built differently than most, though. He could see through illusions. It was a gift from his mother. He saw Truth. And the truth was that while Salvador had enjoyed the few romps he and Cane had shared with the woman, he desired nothing further.

Im not even sure were friends. By all rights we should be enemies. She was faerie. He was an abomination. She was built to rule, seduce. He was built to kill, destroy. He liked her, though. Not at all with the same kind of intensity that had infected Sinjin and Canaan. But he didnt hate her and want to immediately murder her, which was quite something.

Shes so hung up on this dying, he groused, kicking a skull. It bounced off the trunk of his bleeding tree and rolled, streaked with red, out into the mist. Divination is ***. Nobody knows when theyre going to die. They just do. She could *** keel over tomorrow. Especially if she keeps stressing the way she does. Of course shes dying. Were all *** dying.

It was the iron in her blood that prevented him from helping her. Were she not so poisoned, he thought, he could perhaps fix her. In theory. If he could cannibalize flesh for himself, why not for another? Especially another fae creature.

If it werent for Cane, I wouldnt give a ***, he grumbled. The next object he scooped from the ground was a rock, a plain old rock. He lobbed it at his tree and winced at the dull ache he felt from its impact. The tree squelched as it dislodged the rock, which thumped when it hit the ground.

Worst of all, he could sympathize. Drawing up his legs with a frown, he tucked his arms around his knees and glowered at the dripping branches in front of him. Salvador knew full well what it felt like to think oneself nothing. Insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Worthless. Powerless. Who in their right mind could love a monster like him? An abomination. A shouldnt be. A creature unlike any other. No one knew his lifespan. Every day he woke up, there was the sunrise, a reminder he was still alive, his great big *** you to the world. Maybe he didnt live every day to the fullest, but he lived, and that was something too.

She doesnt deserve them, he muttered bitterly. Sin and Cane. They were too good for her, he thought. He could see what they were doing, how both of them cared so much for her and only wanted her last moments to be full of joy and love. Even though the Cajun had stopped pursuing her romantically, he still strived to keep her happy. But it wasnt enough for her, he could see, and she treated him like dirt for it. He knew it was only a matter of time before Sin disappointed her, too. And then what would she have?

Nothing, he murmured. She had said it enough times at their meeting that the word was stuck now, etched, burned into his thoughts. It pulsed and flashed like a beacon. She was trying so hard to push them away, but at the same time was clinging. He could see it. And it was probably, in part, just to spite her, that Salvador refused to give up. On anything.
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PostPosted: Sun Feb 18, 2018 7:13 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Sunday. February 18, 2017.
-- adrift


"Where should we go tonight?"

Canes words from Friday night when they left the Inn. They came to him again as if they were still there, overlapping the sound of waves pushing against the belly of the boat and making it sway. The ocean spoke to him in whispers of the past. Salvador felt now much as he had then. It didnt matter. They had options and he, personally, felt no particular pull toward any of them.

So he had shrugged and said, "Wherever you want." Cane took his hand as they stepped out the door.

"The boat," he said decisively. "We can take it out on the open water tomorrow when we wake up." Spend the day at sea? It sounded grand.

It sounded like a desire to escape. The build up had been growing for days, weeks, even long before they had learned of the finality of Lirssas fate. The tension had begun even before that, with Jewell and Sinjin. Salvador did not blame the man the desire to flee; he felt like disappearing too, and so had not at all objected to the idea of taking the boat out for a spin, for staying there for as long as they had.

Everything was peaceful here, blessedly quiet. There was no one for miles around. Cell phone reception was terrible, but eventually a signal got through. Cane had been avoiding responding to Evas voicemail, and might have ignored it entirely, he knew, if it werent for Jewells text the next day. He had watched his lover struggle with the desire to hurl the device overboard. Salvador had pried it from his hands, promised safe-keeping and alleviation of the burden. He silenced it and stored it in his pocket, deciding it was better to allow Cane to pretend the world was empty of everyone and everything but him. The Cajun deserved this respite.

Their boat was memories of Spain and solitude. Careful planning had gone into its purchase. It had to be new, fresh off the factory floor, untouched by anyone before them. It was well warded when it was docked, keeping out trespassers, preventing anyone from even seeing it, in such a way that the space it occupied seemed not to exist and no one else tried parking their yachts there. At sea, it was home. They could have lived their indefinitely, fishing and foraging islands to survive. Sometimes, Salvador fantasized about abandoning everything and escaping to that life with his Cajun, but he knew stifling Cane in such a way would diminish him.

He was fire. He was life. He flourished among people.

Salvador enjoyed watching him in social settings. Though he was perpetually an outsider looking in, it never bothered him to exist on the sidelines of Canaans spotlight. The Cajun shined in these situations. He was marvelous to behold. There was nothing Sal loved more than watching him, awake or asleep, such as now, before sunrise. Salvador always woke before sunrise.

This time of year the temperatures on the water could still be frigid. As he rose, slowly and carefully so as not to rouse his peacefully resting lover, Salvador gathered his coat from where it was dropped over a bolted down plush armchair and ascended to the upper deck. He found a cushion to settle on, facing east, and waited, as he always did, to watch the first fingers of light slither over the horizon.

Idle hands sifted through his coat pockets, subconsciously checking off all the items that were near constantly in his inventory. Two packs of cigarettes of two different brands. A book of matches. A whittling knife. A small hunk of wood that was starting to take on the shape of a person and a chair. A handful of bottle caps and buttons. A half chewed pencil no longer than half his thumb. And other more dangerous objects sewn into the seams. As well as his own cell phone, which was cold from disuse, there was Canes. He plucked it from his pocket just to check, frowned at the message he read.

Feeling a spike of annoyance himself had him realizing that these were the sort of words that would upset his Cajun. Cane was not the sort of man who played lightly with death. Never would he dare use his power to bring back someone who was gone. If he was, there would still be Jeremy; there would still be Nash. And Lirssa had been very precise in her wishes. Just because he could did not mean he would. Salvador was annoyed the girl could think so little of him and could only imagine Canes fury if he ever found this message. Still, the decision to dispose of the evidence did not come lightly.

Salvadors thumb swept back and forth over the blackened screen as he watched the sun rise. The boat rocked and swayed beneath him. Gentle waves lapped softly against the hull. Perfect serenity surrounded him, and it was that sort of peace he refused to see ruined. With fresh light and warmth washing over him, he tapped the phone back on and swiped left to expose the option to delete. One simple touch eradicated the threat.

Some time later, Cane stirred and sluggishly ascended to join him on deck. He smiled as the Cajuns warmth folded into place at his back and the mans arms wound about his waist. He tipped back his head, giving him access to his neck, where predictably he placed a kiss.

Good morning, he murmured, tucking his arms against Canes to lock them more securely into place.

Morning, the Cajun grunted groggily.

Salvador turned his head with a soft, fond smile and closed his eyes. With their heads leaned together, lounging among the perfect solitude of the sea, he couldnt have been any happier. Te amo, he said just as quietly.

Later, he decided. Once they abandoned the ocean and returned to land, when they were among people again and could no longer ignore what was real, then he would tell the Cajun, at least, that more condolences had been sent his way. As for the absurdly insulting *** insinuation that resurrection was even a possibility That Cane never needed to know.
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