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PostPosted: Mon Oct 02, 2006 3:59 am    Post subject: Natha Lotha Renor Voiry (Diary of a mad woman) Reply with quote

Pages upon pages, upon pages of this black book are runed over. Marked in dark black of old blood, only dates remain. Words here and there, like: Hammer, Alturiak, Ches--perhaps months in a calendar from a place she was familiar with. Only Suliss'urn understood what was in these pages. What had been. Now, half of them were gone.

But in the morning, from a pack left lying near an oaken door, when the morning was silent and deep breathing of those sleeping were the only noises to keep her company, she donned a robe. Tied it absently loose about her middle and took herself to a table.

Seating herself before it, she opened the book. A strange, wrapped implement for writing in her hand.

It was a long time. A long, long time before the words came.




I am
I am
I am
I am
I am alive.



She closed the book with a quick snap of fingers. As if --frightened of what she'd done. Frightened of what happened. Closed it, and slunk, practically to her pack once more and shoved it deep within.

The moment, the actions were then put far, far out of her mind.

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PostPosted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 7:57 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

We are not sure.

We do not like this feeling, xas.

Old eyes, pretty eyes, old owl eyes. They are bright and they know--they know too much of us and us and he. Perched above, he looks down upon us (but they all do. Tall trees, these humans.) He waited and he knew.

We have killed men for less.

We are
We are u
We are un
We are unsu
We are unsure.

We are afraid. Do we lose that which makes us a weapon? What would they say, should they see us now?

That we are weak. That we are fools.

Then so be it. Fools, we are.

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PostPosted: Fri Oct 27, 2006 5:07 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

What is old, is new. This is the way of things. What words can a throat screamed shut, give? None.

The drums beat in my head. They call me, oh, he would flatter one side but he brought out the other. We know this; we know this but do naut care.

A sword. Bright gleaming but chipped away at by time, is still a sword. Inside the blade is an alloy that seethes with things I cannot yet understand. But I will. I will go head long into it, singing my own blades until all is mine.

Mine, mine, mine.

I have marked this, and this is mine.

Why do I write here? Do I remember what once was, or do I remember what could be? For a moment I ran alike child across a cold stone floor and dreamed.

Will we dream together, in the final moment shoulder to shoulder, the screams of the dying at our feet?

Time will tell. If I do naut break it.

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PostPosted: Sat Dec 16, 2006 8:04 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

Young is old is old and young.

I do not care what he says, petulant to me about wanting. Do not speak to me of wanting.

I know of wanting, for decades until time no longer means...

I know.

Don't I?

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PostPosted: Fri Jan 19, 2007 8:37 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

In the days of my youth I had the heartbeats of hundreds within my gray palm. I could look out across the great caverns and see the polished breastplates of my houses guard standing stone-faced and ready to die at my Matron?s bidding. Die at my sisters bidding. Die at my bidding simply because I could wish it.

Truly, I have taken the knife myself and reached in with greedy hands, hammer, and chisel against bloody breastbone to crack men open like walnuts, reaching in and cupping still beating hearts.

I have consumed the lives of thousands simply by refusing to die. I have made great men weep. I have seen great men empty their bowls in my presence and cry out to their mothers before my hands have gleefully coerced the spark of life from their terrified eyes to fade out, and away, the stench of their deaths a perfume like no other.

I crushed the weak under my feet.

I have been split apart, raked in two, and then sewn back together.

I am afraid of nothing. Nothing!

And yet as the drums beat on, the tongue?s of serpents whisper, as night looms closer and closer?sword and axe and death and dancing?

I find myself pacing long halls that are not my own. I feel the snarl arising at the back of my throat, I lunge at shadows, and I wear the stone beneath my bare feet.

I fear.

But not for me.

That is new. It was the fear of self that kept me one step ahead of poison in my plate, daggers in my back, spiders hatching in my eyes?this fear, this joy of blood, this will to live.

But now, not for me.

How I hate this. How easy it is to hate. How far it is to fall. There is no web to catch me anymore.

Dosib ?nesstren!

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PostPosted: Fri Jul 11, 2008 9:16 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

May 7th

I go there, I go to the place where they gather outside instead of inside--because...because, because--it reminds me of things. Of him. Of them. Of all the names I have lost in the years here. (I have been here so long.)

I go, and there is this human within chair. It has wheels. I dislike this male. He comes and he sits, expecting the world to be given to him upon a platter because his limbs do not work. He is weak and a fool. Many things, many of us do naut work right--inside or out, limbs or hearts or souls. Many of us to do naut come to these places and expect the world to give us what we want because we do naut work.

He is food and naught more and deserves naught more. Why they tolerate him and those like him remind me that they are not me. They are not drow.

I do naut understand humans.

The last I saw of him he was with some other large breasted breeding female. Now, he is with another naut months between. This from a species which attempts to convince me that loyalty, bonds of love are stronger in them than within the drow.

I have seen masters keep pets for centuries, and they can naut keep a mate for longer than months?

I will never understand humans.
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PostPosted: Fri Jul 11, 2008 9:17 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

June 11th

In the forests during winter, the small things, the very little small things, the broken little small things--they hide.

Within endless black holes dug by claws and teeth, they burrow to run from the biting cold.

And I wonder how long I must burrow away from my own winter.
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PostPosted: Fri Jul 11, 2008 9:18 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 7th

I do naut often go because I do not wish to.

I have nau wish to be reminded of great gods upon their knees and a past better left buried with the rest of rotting bodies.

But I came, I went, I saw and stole sweet fish from the kitchens.

It is there that I thought I smelled it.

The desert, the heat, sand and wolf. And yet, I have not smelled metal, iron, the forge or boot polish.

I wish to have one in my mouth, my nose, my hair again. I wish for red and gold. If wishes were fishes I would naut ever hunger. Who told me that?

I am torn and lonely, and do naut understand these things in me.

Only my belly can be fed easily.
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PostPosted: Fri Jul 11, 2008 9:22 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 11th

How dare he.

Insipid male, insignificant worm, useless ghost. How dare he put his teeth upon my neck as if he were...as if he knew. To take away my marks.

They are my marks. They are my memories. He cannot have them and he cannot have my throat.

I will eat his heart.
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PostPosted: Sun Jul 13, 2008 2:43 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 13th

A man shot.

A woman in birthing.

The bull which willfully followed me.

I had a handful of violets and did naut know where to bury them. They were naut for me, you understand. I have never been given flowers; I would mistakenly eat or crush them. I gave them away to music and flying.

These humans make the inside of my head feel clean.
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PostPosted: Mon Jul 14, 2008 1:19 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 14th


This place is full of ghosts.

Last night I turned my head and saw one standing on the lawn.

He has broken my insides without lifting a hand.

I will do the same to him. It is only fair.
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PostPosted: Wed Jul 16, 2008 7:37 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 16th

The dust of ages. It settles in the corners of my eyes. I am old before my time here, in this cage of fireflies that wink in and out. I remain. They do naut.

It is with humor that I think I am old. For in truth, had I been below, I would be young still.

This place is a sweet poison I cannot remove. So is he.

I would have been content to be covered in dust again. The creature on the wood, the gargoyle on the watch. To return to my hunt and the things which did not ask me to think or feel.

But he comes. He stirs up dust. It is in my eyes and in this cavern of my chest.

He says that he is sorry without apologizing.

I do naut know anything.
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June 18th

I hunted for words. There should be words. It is what the humans do, when things get stuck between gut and gullet, stuck perpetually. (I am in a circle. A circle. A circle stuck.)

There were none. So I hunted deer but missed. Missed its throat. Rabbit will do, and I tore it in half with my teeth to find answers.

There were none.

I am not a thing that shares. I am not a thing that does well with the silence of time anymore.

Yet it is all I have, time.

Yesterday I smelled sand and dreamed. The day before I smelled the forge and saw throats needing marking.

I will tear myself in two, with no one to stick the puppet back up.
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PostPosted: Sat Jul 26, 2008 10:07 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

July 22th

There is a man with bottle who spins in circles. Circles, circles, round we go, round. He does not say much, but he watches.

No word from either of my ghosts. One part of me is at ease with this and the other worries. Nothing comes in ones or twos or three but sevens and downpours.

My sister seeks a pact with human. I am wary. I am weary.
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July 26th

Neitar khaless natha rivvil!

Especially in matters of costumes.
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PostPosted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 8:34 am    Post subject: Reply with quote

August 1st

Mal'ai m'elzar.

I should have put the bear dung in his mouth, where it belongs.
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I will no longer wait. I am no longer an animal to crouch at his heel; I will find my own light and no longer stand in his shadow.

This is my life. This is my story. I cannot wait for the pages to never be filled.

There is a fist in my chest, still. It makes me think such strength is a lie.
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